Nov. 20, 2010 Day 2

Now I am a person that fasts and when you fast (if you are someone who fasts on a regular you know) your mind just becomes sharper and clearer. I felt like i needed to fast a couple of weeks agok but couldn't figure out what i am going to fast from.....hence my decision to take a year off. So anyways, i woke up this morning with this vivid memory of something that took place almost 15 years ago. why is this even remotely interesting, read on... a couple of weeks ago, i went out on a date with a guy that i recently met (no names will be mentioned...sorry:( ) Now at the movies, he was a perfect gentleman, but during our meal, he sneaks and takes a pic of my breasts with his cell phone and then shows me the pic as tho its the "right" or coolest thing ever, and no I was not scantly clothed which made it even more weird. Anyways......I was not only insulted but completely turned off from him at that point. If that wasn't enough when he drops me off he gets out of the car saying "i want you" as though I was going to let him in, then proceeds to text me "send me a pic of them" (referring to my breasts) within 5 minutes of leaving my driveway. So yes, I was totally dry(if you know what i mean LOL) . I let him know that i had no desire to see him anymore and advised him of the reason why. He claimed he meant no harm and apologized, but it was over. Well, about 3 weeks have passed and i hadn't thought anything else about him until this morning. About 15 years ago, i hooked up with this guy i had been dealing with and we went to a hotel and had sex. Well, I had sex for hours he just laid there in lifeless amazement receiving but not giving. I stopped dealing with him after that. He reached out to me but I didn't return the interest so things just died off. Why was that him!!! I laughed my ass off with both feelings of "hell naw" and honestly, some feelings of embarassment cuz i wondered if he might have remembered and assumed that we could just pick up where we left off!! He mentioned that he thought he "knew me from somewhere" and i said the same thing. I knew that where-ever we knew eachother from that we really KNEW each other, but I had completely forgot about meeting him 15 years ago (i guess that tells you how unsatisfied I was). Or did he not remember me and really is just immature at his 40+ age to have believed that his behavior that day was appropriate? Whatever it is, I found it crazy that the memory just dropped on me as i was waking up this morning. Man, if this is the kind of stuff that is going to surface this next year is going to be crazy!!! On to day 3.....