Okay, I'm almost at my 30 days and i feel pretty good. Today (although the weather was horrible) I feel okay. I think that the worse is over or should i say out of me and now its all about actually walking the walk and becoming something different. Its not like I don't have the intelligence or the ability to make a change I have just been avoiding it, cuz i know that it means I have to truly step up and accept the responsibility that comes with change.
My best friend will be moving in 2011 and i am so excited for her. She has gone through alot with her marriage and kids and things are finally working out for her so I wish her the best, I believe I am just ready for my new start. Have you ever just felt excited about "something" but not quite sure of what is coming, but you know it is something really good? Thats kind of how I feel, like there are greater things for me, I just need to finish doing my part of this work and HE will do the rest.
Trying to also figure out what I am going to do for the holidays. My family is playing tug of war with me, they are afraid to tell my mom (yes.....afraid) that they want me to go over another aunts house for a family gathering, so they came to me in secret (yes.....in secret) and told me while begging for me not to reveal to her where I got the information from. I don't think I am going to leave my mom hanging. First, xmas is only 2 wks away and the fact that they had to come to me in secret makes me feel like a pawn and I'm not going to play that game, or be used against my mother. Yes, its pitiful over here, I hope your family is not as ridiculous.
Oh well, I am almost finished with school for this semester, ready for a break. Been looking around for different places to move...Florida looks nice, so does Colorado (i just don't want any snow). But it will be someplace, cuz i truly am ready.
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